haha

and yes peanut u can gloat now that i have praised u =)

what was i thinking??

i just read through my entire blog and i felt that i dont know what i was thinking when i wrote this..i mean rue that all that happened but shouldnt i be over it by now..i mean peanut brain is right..itz been three months and shouldntr i act more mature and be reasonable instead of creating mountains of sadness (dukh key pahaar =p)...i hate to admit it but what peanut says is true (yes i hate to admit anything which he says that is right grrr...sorry peanut but i cant help it!)...any how i mean why should i waste it away...i dont understand myself sometimes..i totally manage to forget everything...i mean amit and then the whole family thing and m happy as a bear (i think bears are always happy =p) but the next thing u know some god forsaken image comes up and pooff!! m this shallow self creature in the midst of an entire herd of rampaging ostriches!!...i mean what is up with that nafeesa??? cant u give it a rest... yes i had rage...i was very very angry...but now i am not so why should i even bother myself with all this?...m fine just the way things are...i wish u cud read this but then i dont want u too...my books are running away man! and m going with em..bye bye woody...i dont talk that much and it totally siuits me (i know peanut must be laughing his head off at this since i bug him and jia the most and then tell them that i dont talk much =D)...but even though i sometimes hate peanut (besides my better judgement even though alot has happened) but hez right and mostly is that u cant hold on to things that dont matter..i mean y should u...they aint gonna affect u at all or the other person so why bother urself with em...rite?...maybe...yeah i guess so...so itz just about keeping ur head straight and ur mind in the right direction...things work out themselves...itz nice to see that i can still write my way out of my feelings...thatz why m sayng bye to woody today...she wont ever come into the picture again no matter how close i get to all of it again..because i wont get it anyhow...how ironic things are somwtimes...only i know how ironic they can be...weird huh =)...stupid peanut being right!!!...khair it is fixed so THANKS PEANUT =D...ur weird but u help me and i appreciate it even though i never show it...cz i never wanna show it...cz that would so not be me =)...later!