SHADOWED EYES

Beauty lingers in the depth of shadowed eyes,
That reveals more to me than words ever could,
Lost in an embrace I see us walking together,
On the sands of time

Laughter and secrets shared echo on the wind,
Gravel bloodies my feet but it’s of no consequence,
Your arms hold me up safe and protected,
A companionship that needs fewer words,
And even fewer explanations

Your voice reminds me of promises lost but never forgotten,
And I have lived a lifetime of pain,
Unable to endure were it not for a kind smile,
A warm shoulder, a touch of love and friendship,
That still stays inside me,
Invitingly saying “come in and I’ll give you shelter from the storm”

So in the midst of all this I would like to say,
Memories that live inside me,
Will stay on forever more,
The times I hurt you—hurt me,
Will haunt me till the day I die,
Underneath the bed of earth.

I want to be there when your world is crashing down
I want to be there when they tell you lies,
And when you feel like you don’t belong
Going to be there till the end
Even when you’re gone

BY:
NAFEESA JOHAR

DEALING DEALING DEALING

aik min but why amit??...oh i will tell you why dear!...12 stinking years thatz why...5 of them the best!!!....only i know why...what was i thinking?...i dont depend on anything...no one nothing nada nil zich!...bleargh works for everything....

BUT OF COURSE EVERYTHING IS A JOKE THEN...SO LAUGH AWAY PEOPLE...LAUGH AWAY..LAUGH ME AWAY

1. No cake..dealing
2. No talk...dealing
3. No study...dealing
4.No nothing

STILL FREAKING DEALING WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no oxy and LIVING MY LIFE...WHOAAAA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

what the heck!

so what if they say that i really dont need to change n all...i mean itz not just some ppl who say it..itz alot, but then i think that i do need to do that, i mean i know what had happened with the whole amit thing after i knew that i should have learned even before that but 12years!!!!!!!!!!! god dammit itz like half my life okay and i still done learn...i never will...if they want me like taht then cool they'll have me that way...i spent half my years doing their way and still sucked at everything so what the heck mite as well suck the entire way through...the chair says that i ought to do it their way but the swimmer is more on my side but i dont believe the swimmer that much...i mean why should i??...y should i believe anyone but me...m getting weird day by day n i know it...i mean i dont feel like laughing all the time..y do i??...for others benefit cz if i tell ppl my probs they run away..woooshhh!!!! hahahaha...n i dunt realli have much to tell anyhow so y should i in the first place...swimmers rite and so is woody...i am going mad!...but m a cool mad..lol...why cant i move it on man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....m yelling and screaming and nobody listens and i dont want them to but then again i do...m so god damn useless everyday and second of my life...help help help help help...i dont need it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 who am i kidding??...i cant ever forget it..all thats happened for five years..how can i so easily forget what had happened...i try okay dont think that i dont. i try to forget what happened but i just cant at times. i dont know what to do about it. i cant laugh cant smile...just too buzie with m work all the itme...is this the way to live???? no i say itz not so why am i living it then...i need to make people around me happy and comfortable thatz why...

 i am just so immature at times why cnat i accept that it was all fake...