what the heck!

so what if they say that i really dont need to change n all...i mean itz not just some ppl who say it..itz alot, but then i think that i do need to do that, i mean i know what had happened with the whole amit thing after i knew that i should have learned even before that but 12years!!!!!!!!!!! god dammit itz like half my life okay and i still done learn...i never will...if they want me like taht then cool they'll have me that way...i spent half my years doing their way and still sucked at everything so what the heck mite as well suck the entire way through...the chair says that i ought to do it their way but the swimmer is more on my side but i dont believe the swimmer that much...i mean why should i??...y should i believe anyone but me...m getting weird day by day n i know it...i mean i dont feel like laughing all the time..y do i??...for others benefit cz if i tell ppl my probs they run away..woooshhh!!!! hahahaha...n i dunt realli have much to tell anyhow so y should i in the first place...swimmers rite and so is woody...i am going mad!...but m a cool mad..lol...why cant i move it on man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....m yelling and screaming and nobody listens and i dont want them to but then again i do...m so god damn useless everyday and second of my life...help help help help help...i dont need it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!