who am i kidding??...i cant ever forget it..all thats happened for five years..how can i so easily forget what had happened...i try okay dont think that i dont. i try to forget what happened but i just cant at times. i dont know what to do about it. i cant laugh cant smile...just too buzie with m work all the itme...is this the way to live???? no i say itz not so why am i living it then...i need to make people around me happy and comfortable thatz why...

 i am just so immature at times why cnat i accept that it was all fake...